Monday, August 28, 2006

i wonder how long before i reach my milestone 500th post. heh. just a random question, but why do u term overstay infront of the pc as hogging the computer when overstay has nothing to do with pigs. oh well. anyways..

i was like sort of resting on the table, eyes on his sony erikkson phone. somehow wishing in my mind of crazy fantasy that i ll have some psychic power or force to push the camera len cover down just for my own amusement.

yup. had that talk in the morning. in the end was quite redundant la cus we were in a calm state of mind and we sort of talked things out the night before. guess its all alright between us. i mean just glad it didnt end bitter and stuff like that. anyway, now that i have no choice but to find u everytime i had a problem. can i just say that i feel u need to be abit more sensitive too. lol. cus like call someone stupid when he has already screwed up big time and feels darn bad about it is quite nan shou.

yups. doctor says i have a viral infection. all those people out there. told u i was sick le. den bodoh bodoh dun believe me. silly chee ping. i was stoning during chem lecture, den he tot i was looking somewhere else at someone. lol. feel like slapping him.

after that slacked with huishi in the concourse. oh wells. jc life. kinda takes away all ur energy and in the end u feel like some uncharged duracell bunny. it was cool la, talked about those relationship sort of stuff den moved on into God talk and stuff like that. been a long time since i had dat sort of talk with anyone. the sort of, hey i m sharing the gospel with u sort of talk. huishi thinks it wasted, but i think its all for the best. heh.

nevertheless, really hope one day we can look back and luff at this whole thing. but i think the relationship has really taught me quite alot of stuff la. in some sense, theres this been there, done that thing. and now that its over, i dun mind telling people about it, i mean like with so many people in jc with relationships, i guess taking the first step to telling them abour yourself, kinda lets them open themselves up to u. its cool. guess the relationship really in a sense taught me how i should love God, lesson learnt in a weird way. haha. and i guess i mellowed abit, more mature, just that i dunno whether its foreign investor status or citizen status. lets hope its the latter if u know wad i mean.

still felt abit weird u know. its sort of like the same feeling as asking me to change the way i go home. dun take mrt but change bus twice everyday. needs some getting used to la. i know Gods there but just couldnt help but felt abit lonely today. u know, for me its not really bout hu i tell, cus i tell stuff to everyone but more like hu i feel can understand and help. and i guess i have to find someone else hu understands la.

the next one and a half years are gonna spell loads of uncertainty. but i guess i should just keep trusting God. keep on keeping on.

oh yar. thanks yvonne and mavis for lending me all the math stuff!

|cowpoo| 2:34 PM|

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